Lately, I have been challenged on a personal level in the mundane world. I've been hip deep in alligators and assholes. (Oh what fun!) It's been tough and I have had to keep a tight rein on my magickal temper. I knew I had lost my grip on it when I found myself planning on casting angry spells and visualizing the delicious outcome, all without a damn for the repercussions. Once I realized I was loosing control of my magick, it gave me a hell of a jolt- and that snapped me back.
I stopped what I was imagining/ plotting. Took some deep breaths, grounded and asked myself if I was working from a place of neutrality, or just rationalizing it all because I was furious?
Yes, I do have a lively sense of humor and often that saves me. However I also have a temper- a bad one. I keep a lid on it most of the time because when it blows, I take no prisoners.
Fact: I am not perfect.
After almost 30 years of being a practicing Witch, I know my dark side and I respect it.
I know exactly what I am capable of when I loose my temper. I have seen the damage that anger and magick can cause. Over the years I have had to learn the hard way how uncomfortable karma and magickal backlash can be. Yes, I have made magickal mistakes in the past. I don't have a problem admitting that. Most importantly I have learned from them and I do NOT repeat them.
|Helen Mirren in The Tempest|
So this is what I do. I typically give myself a 24 hour cooling off- no magick- time out. That way I can think. And it allows me to consider all of my options, and to ponder if any magickal intervention on my part would cause even more complications with the situation.
It pays to be cautious and to rely on that inner-wisdom. To think carefully and to consider your actions and whether or not one is acting from a place of neutrality.
Here is a favorite personal phrase to remember, my witchy readers.
"When in doubt, take a magickal time out."
If your anger has the best of you, and you are plotting magickal revenge, calm down and go talk to some friends. In my case I called a couple of women who I knew would give me a no-bullshit answer and practical magickal advice. Oh, and did they.
After 24 hours had passed I was able to move forward with a clear head. I worked my magick calmly, ethically and neutrally. I was business like and best of all, it felt right.
So when you loose your temper and common sense goes out the window... before you cast a spell, ask yourself the age old question. Are you a good Witch or a bad Witch? Because you will have to live with whatever your answer truly is.